100% from the start

I am one of those people who if I was a teacher I would start every student off with an A.  And then I would expect nothing but almost perfection from them.  I would deduct from their A’s for bad grades or poor behavior.  But, if they maintained a constant work ethic and was well-behaved they would leave my class with high marks.  This is how I would love to tip too.  I heard of this man who would come to a dinner with a pile bills.  He would lay them in the center of the table and say to the waiter, “This is your tip.  If you do everything right you are quarantined to take this home.  If you screw up I am taking some of it or all of it with me.”   Again, what a way to show someone what you already expect of them. 

I discovered after talking with one of my friends that I do this with my own acquaintances.   (not family because I am forced to love them for all eternity and I am fine with that) People who I chose to hang out with or have constant contact with.  Even new people who I meet and start to get to know.  I give everyone 100% of myself and I assume that they are just amazing!    Of course how amazing you are depends on the energy I get from you in the first moments of our meeting.  But, usually everyone starts out in my eyes with A’s for friends.   I will always take into consideration that humans aren’t subjects and we all have certain behavior traits that might be somewhat strange to others.  These aren’t things that usually change how I feel about others.  But, I do start to think less of people or rather deduct points for things like hurting me, or hurting someone else I love.  I don’t like it when I am not respected.  I don’t like it when I feel like people are using me.  And in all of these case’s whether I realize it or not I tend to lose just a little bit of interest and respect in the person who is treating me these ways.  They go down a certain percentage in my eyes. 

Who knows if this is a good way to look at people in your life.  But, as I see it people can screw up a lot in my eyes before I mark them so low I could care less if I see them again.  I am not one of those people who will only give you one chance.  I also alow for extra credit.  You may have been an ass and hurt my feelings.  But, if you go out of your way to say you are sorry.  I will add in more percentage points.   I have friends who I have known since Junior High, that are still at 100% because they Rock!  They are  “A” Students at the very least.


Virgins or Sluts?

I was recently enjoying the company of several High school friends and their husbands. It was extremely late at night or rather very early in the morning. We were at Carrow’s because “Carrow’s cares”, enjoying a midnight snack and reminiscing what has been our lives since high school. Some of the ladies who have children of puberty age were discussing the problems their children face in regards to peer pressure. And I turned to one of my friends who had excused herself in Highschool from hanging out with myself and our friend. Because my other friend and I were starting to get into the things that ones parents try to discourage you from trying. We were both interested in the sex, drugs, cigs and booze. I told her I admired her for taking her own road and not feeling the need to judge us for our choices. I always respected her for standing to her high morals. At this point she started laughing and says, “yeah I just got knocked up and 17!” To this we all laughed. Then I sat back and realized that out of the four of us. 2 were so-called “good Girls” in highschool. Both holding on to both their innocence and their virginity as long as possible. And yet both of them got pregnant at 17. And the other two of us did almost all the things you are not supposed to do, went on to college, married and then had babies. What did we learn from all of this? “Let your children make the mistakes they need to make in life!” Because honestly, we all turned out just fine! And who knows which two of us did things more right by societies standards. All I know is that I don’t think any of us would change where we are now.

Throw it at me

I won’t let go no matter how hard you try to pull away
I will hold you in my arms until all your tears fade

You will be the only thing I will see
Your happiness is all that I need

Take it all out of you, stop being angry
Take it out and throw it all at me

When you feel like there is no way to survive
I will be holding your hand reminding you your alive

You might try to climb the wall instead of sitting still
You may want to cry out in fear, letting out the pains you feel

Go ahead my love take it all out and throw it at me
I can take your pain, I can handle all your misery

I will watch with patience and understanding
As you to try to fly before you learn the landing

I will mend your brakes, your wounds and your heart
I will be beside you when all else falls apart

I love you sweet thing, I love you more than me
I don’t know what more I can do to help you see

When ever you feel that you are all alone
I will be standing at the door or on the phone

Your happiness is all I care to know
Your own joys and scarce sorrows

Take it all out of you and throw it in my face
Scream at me and threaten to leave this place

I won’t care, I will love you still
I will suck on it like a bitter pill

But when your done and all the pain is gone
I will still be there, because that is where I belong

Love song by Adele

Love song by Adele

It’s what keeps running threw my head like a non-stop record.  I loved Cures version of this song.  But, I really love Adeles version.

I hope you enjoy this selection.

Lyrics to Lovesong


[Verse 1:]
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

[Verse 2:]
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you [x2]

Coloring Project – The Frog


2010 Summer Reading List

Sookie Stackhouse, the complete stories A touch of Dead
Finger Prints & Facelifts
His First Wife, Gracce Octavia
The promise of happiness, Justin Cratwright
Silk & Shadows
The Honey Thief
The marriage
Ya ya Sisterhood book # 3
The Other Boleyn Girl
Wishful Drinking, Carrie Fisher
3 book flower series by Nora Roberts
The Kept woman
Twlight book # 4
twlight book #3

Coloring Project – The Swan