Letting go of frozen

I’m frozen here in this scary place
I feel my heart as it begins to race

My feet are encased in blocks of ice
They keep me planted to an array of ties

What do you want me to say
your pain is more than I can take

I try to fly, I try to soar
I thought you saw me fly out the door

But the cold comes on and freezes my wings
It stabs my chest so I can no longer sing

I am trying to help, I am trying to show
I was honest with you, You must know

If I say the words, will you hear them
If I scream them at you, will you defend

I love you, I do, I am sorry you’re in pain
I would take it all back, if I saw any change

I would melt the ice I freeze in
I would run to be in your arms again

But the girl you knew, the bird you adored
She doesn’t live in this body any more

She disappeared so long ago
She tried to let you know

We were blind, stupid even and now I see no hope
We could have tried to fix it, but we let go of the rope

The tie that bound us, tethering us together
It split to shreds like one of my feathers

I was so sad before, so empty
now I don’t know whats in store for me

I am more scared now than I have ever been
I could stay frozen with you and let this all end

But, my heart would not be there
It would not be fair

I love you, you are wonderful
But, I’m not in love with you any more

I tried to give my heart back to you, for so long it wasn’t even mine
Now that I have it back to me I want to keep it in a shrine

I don’t want to share it, I don’t want to be frozen
I need to let go of the life I have chosen

I’m sorry beautiful man, you don’t deserve this
I wish that when I go you find your bless

I can’t say this enough, I can’t get any clearer
I love you but my heart flew into the future

Again

I will not let you hurt me
I will not let you try
My joy is all you will see
You will never see me cry
AGAIN

I will not be your slave
Keeping all my time to me
Go ahead and stay in your cave
As the bird I am flies free
AGAIN

You will never hear me say the words
I won’t be needing your constant affection
I will not be begging you for more
Or act like you are my addiction
AGAIN

You can spin your web of lies
Say you are faithful and hurt
But, watch as this bird flies
You won’t be treating me like dirt
AGAIN

I’ve got my guard up around my heart
I have heard all these sweet things before
I won’t let you tear it apart
You might as well head out the door

AGAIN!

Lonely Hearts Club

Welcome to the Lonely Hearts Club, If you dare to come on in
We don’t appreciate any talk of love, You must know this before we begin

We’re made up of unhappy woman all united in our pain
All tired of the hopes weve woven circling down the drain

Our hearts all broken at some point, leaving just the shell
We are angry a lot  and annoyed, wishing our Ex’s were in hell

We scream out at the club meetings, “he’s dead to me Don’t you see?”
We cry in each others Ice Teas and wail, “oh woe is Me”

All of us so sick of our ex’s farewells and stupid goodbyes
The “Take care’s, Be Well’s, good luck’s”, what no high fives

After saying their, “I love you’s, Oh sexy, Honey and My Dears”
We wonder if their words were true, when they ran away in fear

It is a club made up of only woman but men may easily apply
To join the club and fit in, a broken heart will suffice

Coloring Project – The Frog

Frog

2010 Summer Reading List

Sookie Stackhouse, the complete stories A touch of Dead
Finger Prints & Facelifts
His First Wife, Gracce Octavia
The promise of happiness, Justin Cratwright
Silk & Shadows
Wifey
The Honey Thief
The marriage
Ya ya Sisterhood book # 3
The Other Boleyn Girl
Wishful Drinking, Carrie Fisher
3 book flower series by Nora Roberts
The Kept woman
Twlight book # 4
twlight book #3

Coloring Project – The Swan