Eat the Cake

You want your cake
You want to eat it too
Have all you can take
If that’s what you want to do

Eat up your sweet
Suck the frosting in
I hope you get all you seek
And your happy in the end

Is that piece exactly what you want
Is the filling just right for you
Is that cake as fresh as you had sought
You are giving up me to have the two

You want your cake
You want to eat it too
I am not going to placate
Or pretend I don’t care what you do

I hope you enjoy your dessert
I hope the flavor is the best you had
Go ahead and start to flirt
With your decision you should be glad

But while you eat up every last bite
While you scrape off the last of the sweetness
I will no longer be in sight
Your sweet tooth will be your weakness

It saddens me that you are not happy
You can do what you want to do
When ever I think of you and me
It was like having my cake and eating it too.


Releasing the Bird

He’ll never say the things I so wish him to say
He’ll never tell, if my leaving caused him pain

But, he left me.  That, I can’t forget
Left the cage door open, no longer his pet

“Spread your wings and fly my love. Be well”
That’s the end, there’s nothing else to tell

His void is felt deep within
I miss his smell on my skin

No way of knowing if he misses me
All I know, is he set me free

And as far as I fly and as I high as I go
my heart will surely miss him so

He opened my eyes to something new
to something in me I never knew

He started the fire, he blew on my flame
He called me his baby each time that I came

He showed me a life that I know I deserve
But his was on loan, all rights “reserved”

I know what I want now, I know what I need
I will no longer beg for it, no longer plead

This birds been released and it’s bound to explore
Never to settle for the life lived before

But know this my love, in my heart you will stay
And I will think of you less with each passing day

I will miss you  immensely  this I already do
But, it was time to let me go, you already knew.

I love you sweet man and I hope you love me
I’ll be back some day and I hope you’ll be ready.

Breaking Point

How long can a person survive on absolutely no certainty in life?   How long can all of someones most major life avenues be completely up in the air before they have  a nervous breakdown?  And how much of the uncertainty in one persons life is the cause for more uncertainty?  For example, someone is having problems at home, the house is being foreclosed or the wife is sick.  At what point does that start to affect ones work?  There by causing uncertainty in ones employment arena. 

Is there a point when someone can simply pull their heads out of their ass and make the changes they need to have certainty.  And will that point come before or after the only thing that is certain is a  breaking point?

Needing my First love

Please, take me to that place my love
the one I have been dreaming of for so long
I rush your way, you’re the wind and I am the dove
I have never felt being with you was wrong

The weather never seems to effect me seeing you
I would be by you no matter what
If it’s pouring and flooding is certain too
If the sun is so high the sand is blistering hot

I would take every step to be by your side
I would rush the traffic along
Not wanting to waste a minute of time
I hear you in my head like a song

When I see you at last my first love
I feel a rush come over me
I feel the heavens open above
I am mystified at all I see

You are always there for me
Making your presence known
You have always been all I need
You rock me to my bones

We can be together for hours
Without ever having to say a word
It’s like stopping to smell the flowers
And ignoring the speed of the world

I love my time with you
I love the adventures we’ve had
Without you I wouldn’t know what to do
When I’m away from you, I’m like a mermaid on dry land

The ground is so very far below

This mountain is tall
It towers over me blocking the sun
shadowing the jagged stones that protrude from it
The ground is so very far below
Breathless from the climb
I feel as though I have been moving for years
Scaling along this steep rocky cliff side
Fretting the shark infested waters that thrash against the mountain’s side
so very far below me

What if I slip?
What if I lose my grip?
My arms are so sore from the efforts
My legs ache from just trying to grip with my toes
I still can’t see the top
The ground is so very far below

I will keep moving on
I will make it to safety some day
Until then I will dread each gust of wind
Each threat of being something elses prey
Slow and steady is how I will continue
This is the only pace I know

Stuck in the Web

Spin me in this web of yours
Tie me up in your opalescent strings
Let your blackness invade my cords
From the notes that I try to sing

I am that little girl caught up in you
Frolicking in this field of yours
Because I have nothing else I’d rather do
I will stay here until it pours

You caught me here
You’ve tied my knots
Your web was clear
That’s how I got caught

You creep  towards me
Your countless legs never stopping
Your blackness is all I see
As my anxiety starts rising

I am just “the Prey” to you
I always saw you as something different
Your sneaky ways I hadn’t a clue
Like walking in the grass bare foot

What are your plans now that you have me here
Stuck in this invisible net of lies
Your intentions with me have never been clear
The closer you are the faster my heart rate climbs

Will you be keeping me here for ever, alone
Will you be eating me for lunch
Will you be wrapping me up in some kind of cocoon
What you are planing I haven’t a hunch

Take your steps if you will
Make your move now and move on
The torment is making me ill
All my hopes for love are gone

I relinquish in your binds
I give you all I have
Done being scared about the things that blind
Just get on with your wrath

I am stuck in your web
Trapped here for all to see
I will make it my new bed
Because you are now a part of me


Did you remember all of the essentials before you came to town?
You know,
Roadmap, gum, rain gear, straight Jacket, and your pepper spray?
Don’t forget to put the heart on lockdown before you get lost.
You never know when you will find yourself unprepared for a situation. 

Weathers a bitch in Singleville.
It’s a place where temperatures aren’t always reliable. 
You have to make sure you come prepared for all types of conditions. 
It can get HOT!  Hot, hot!
Please don’t plan on skinny dipping in the moonlight, every night.
The cold can come on quick in “Singleville”.  
Frosting over your windows, freezing shut your doors
Causing you to ask, “Am I really meant to be here?”

Traffic is sporadic  at best. 
You never know when it will be busy with singles almost crashing into you
Days will come and go without even a second glance from anyone
You may find lots of activity on the road
you may be delighted in all you see
You may see no one at all
Because this is Singleville and you never know what you will get

Welcome and please beware of all the broken singles
you may think they are perfect until you see the cracks that surrounds their heart
Like a very old plate that’s been placed in the dishwasher
be aware of the singles who are only out for themselves
Those old plates can be beautiful, seem perfect
but the cracks run deeper than you can repair

Welcome to Singleville……. ready?

2nd hand undies

I am just fine with 2nd hand goods.  I am not too proud to take anyone’s left overs.  Especially lately, I have never been so poor in my life. But, there are somethings that I will NOT use second-hand.  I simply draw the line at underwear and swimsuits!  I know, I know they either have been washed or could be washed.  I realize I could boil the crap out of them (no pun intended) and they would be considered by all standards clean.  But, I would still feel very weird about the whole thing.  I know it is no different from sleeping in a hotel rooms bed naked and I can do that without a second thought.  But, I would rather go “commando” then wear someone else’s underwear. ..

Song Bird, by Fleetwood Mac

Song bird

I am going old school with this one people.  I have loved this song since I was a little girl listening to it on my step dads record player.

Enjoy Fleetwood Mac


For you, there’ll be no more crying,
For you, the sun will be shining,
And I feel that when I’m with you,
It’s alright, I know it’s right

To you, I’ll give the world
to you, I’ll never be cold
‘Cause I feel that when I’m with you,
It’s alright, I know it’s right.

And the songbirds are singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before.

And I wish you all the love in the world,
But most of all, I wish it from myself.

And the songbirds keep singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before, like never before.


How can I handle this relationship that faces me
How can I pretend that I alone make him happy

It’s a baffling situation that scares me to death
I want to fall but it’s like taking your last breath

What if I’m alone as I fall in this state
What if I’m just not apart of his fate

Where will I be if I fall all alone
Left to crawl off the floor on my own

I try to hold on and grasp at what’s near
I try to let go but I am smothered in fear

What will it be like, how will I feel
Will I feel blind as if nothing is real

Will I feel loved as if never before
Will I want to just run out the door

I am sick with these thoughts unsure of whats next
Just when I was comfortable I get put to the test

I was happy with us just doing our thing
I was happy in lust with you holding me

Now I am unstable, unsure but aware
I wouldn’t feel this way if I didn’t care

Coloring Project – The Frog


2010 Summer Reading List

Sookie Stackhouse, the complete stories A touch of Dead
Finger Prints & Facelifts
His First Wife, Gracce Octavia
The promise of happiness, Justin Cratwright
Silk & Shadows
The Honey Thief
The marriage
Ya ya Sisterhood book # 3
The Other Boleyn Girl
Wishful Drinking, Carrie Fisher
3 book flower series by Nora Roberts
The Kept woman
Twlight book # 4
twlight book #3

Coloring Project – The Swan