Do you look out or Down?

I remember as early as Junior High School knowing that there are two types of people in the world.  There are the people who look out when they walk and those who look down.  I have always been one of the people who look out.  I remember walking home from school one day with my BFF  and I got on her about how she was missing everything because she looked down all the time when she walked.  I said, “You just missed a hawk catch that little finch.  You don’t see the blossoms on the cherry trees.  You are missing out on life.”  I was certain at that young age of 13 that my way was  the better way.  I don’t miss out on life, I see it all.  I see things coming at me from miles away.  You will not find me stuck on a train track unaware of the up coming death. 

I’ve gone on in my life, either not thinking of this theory at all or remembering it when I see people looking down when they walk.  I would think, “Oh, there goes another foot watcher”, always sort of thinking that my way of looking at life was the better.  That was until I spent a  couple of wonderful days at the beach with another dear friend.  Every time we went to the coast she would find the most beautiful things.  She has found perfect shells, haunting driftwood, classic old bottles with corks.  One day I was honestly starting to feel a bit jealous.  I said, “I come to the beach like 3 days a week and I find something maybe once every six times.  Every single time you come out here with me you find the coolest things.  What is that? ”  She just giggled and shrugged as she stuck this huge piece of amazing driftwood in the back of my car.  She said, “I just see cool things when I walk.  They’re all over the ground you just have to see them.”  Then it occurred to me, “She looks down, and she sees it all”.  I never see the beauty at my feet.  I never find the little treasures around me, because I am constantly looking off to the future.  She takes each step with care.  She never gets hurt or falls, she sees what she has to deal with at that moment and prepares.  I am so busy looking out at the things around me I am constantly tripping and falling.  I am always unaware of the changing terrains of my life.

Which way is better?  I appreciate the people who look down even though I am still not one of them.  I appreciate their grace and wonderous finds.  But, I will never stop looking out.  If I did I would miss my beautiful waves, the birds that swoop in to catch a fish and the sunset that turns the water opalescent as it touches its glassy surface.  I am not prepared to miss that at all.

What do you do?

Somebody I used to Know

I love this song It reminds me of the “police”. I think Gotye needs to open his eyes when he performs but I like his grove.

Lyrics

Somebody That I Used To Know”
(feat. Kimbra)

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I’d done
But I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

 

Video

“At the Waters Edge”

It is a warm night
Clear and crisp
All the stars are in sight
Alone with you in our bliss

It’s not to hot or cold
The air around us is sweet
A mixture of pollen and mold
from the flowers at our feet

I’m intoxicated by your smell
A duo of musk and beer
“Do you like me” I wish I could tell
“What if I fall for him?” is my fear

We walk to the water’s edge
You take care that I don’t slip
We go down the stairs, around the hedge
Then past the wild tulips

Slowly we maneuver the trees
You hold the branches to let me pass
I could tell you were taking care with me
It felt like time was going way to fast

“It won’t be long now
The end will come
It will all disappear some how
You’ll be gone before the sun

You want me to go in the water
Blackness is all that could be seen
“Are you a shy girl?” I am not her
So I proceed to remove my jeans

The water is cold to my skin
It feels like being wrapped in silk
You reached for me to help me in
The moss between my toes is slick

We climb onto a small wood dock
Using a turned over canoe as a seat
As black birds fly above in a flock
And the frogs frolic at our feet

The moon sheds silver all around
You look at me with a wanting stare
I suddenly wished I was on solid ground
“Would he kiss me? would he Dare?”

“It won’t be long now
The end will come
It will all disappear some how
You’ll be gone before the sun“‘

I know it’s going to happen
I feel it in your movement
Our energy feels like magic
This is the prefect moment

You pull me close, you hold me tight
You wrap your hands in my curly hair
There is something special in the air tonight
We have not a worry, not a care

Seeing only your left side
As you look intently at me
Your lips gently touch mine
I am suddenly weak in the knees

Your lips are simply wonderful
Your arms feel strong around me
As I hope your intentions are pure
My body trembles in defeat

But I know it won’t be long now
The end is sure to come
It will all disappear some how
You’ll be gone before the sun

And you were.

Cold or Flu

I hate it when I am sick
I don’t enjoy it, one single bit

The pressure in my head
Makes me want to stay in bed

I hear pounding in ears, that already ring
“I’m dying!” are my fears “what can this be?”

My nose is chapped. but runny
How does that work? It’s not funny!

My body aches from morning to-night
I tried to get up but didn’t have the fight

My lips are so dry they have started bleeding
I can’t talk, my mouth is needed for breathing

I’m cold and I’m hot
I am tired when I’m not

My cough is killing my chest
My bodies being put to the test

Just lock me in my room, turn the tv on and leave
I feel like being in a tomb, just my cold and me

I am going to unplug and go to sleep soon
I’ll be back when I have finally beaten this flu

Coloring Project – The Frog

Frog

2010 Summer Reading List

Sookie Stackhouse, the complete stories A touch of Dead
Finger Prints & Facelifts
His First Wife, Gracce Octavia
The promise of happiness, Justin Cratwright
Silk & Shadows
Wifey
The Honey Thief
The marriage
Ya ya Sisterhood book # 3
The Other Boleyn Girl
Wishful Drinking, Carrie Fisher
3 book flower series by Nora Roberts
The Kept woman
Twlight book # 4
twlight book #3

Coloring Project – The Swan