I am just slightly freaking out right now.  I found out today that I got a place to live!  I am so excited!  I can’t wait to finally have my own space, my own furniture, my own time, my own bills, my own weeding, my own cooking, shopping, repairs and taxes. (panicked now!)  Oh my god what have I gotten myself into?  I am so scared and so excited at the same time.  My body literally does not know whether to give me cramping and excessive poops or butterflies. (these being my regular responses to these two emotions).  Instead I am standing in one place, completely enable to move.   I have so very, very much to do!  I need to do my clients work, I need to pack for tomorrow and the next day, I need to pack up everything I own in the home I have had for 14 years.  But worse than all of that is trying to figure out what to pack and what to leave for my wasband.  We didn’t go over every single dish or pan and who would get what?  We didn’t discuss towels or blankets.  OH MY!!! so instead I am writing a pointless  blog post about how I can’t seem to do anything else.  Ok I really need to go back to what I was doing…. which was packing.  No I mean working.  More to come later, maybe in five minutes or maybe in a month when it is all over.  Wait and see


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  1. Mary
    Sep 22, 2012 @ 15:42:56

    She let go.

    She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.

    She let go of the fear.

    She let go of the judgments.

    She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head.

    She let go of the committee of indecision within her.

    She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons.

    Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.

    She didn’t ask anyone for advice.

    She didn’t read a book on how to let go.

    She didn’t search the scriptures.

    She just let go.

    She let go of all of the memories that held her back.

    She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward.

    She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do
    it just right.

    She didn’t promise to let go.

    She didn’t journal about it.

    She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer.

    She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper.

    She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope.

    She just let go.

    She didn’t analyze whether she should let go.

    She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.

    She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment.

    She didn’t call the prayer line.

    She didn’t utter one word.

    She just let go.

    No one was around when it happened.

    There was no applause or congratulations.

    No one thanked her or praised her.

    No one noticed a thing.

    Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.

    There was no effort.

    There was no struggle.

    It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad.

    It was what it was, and it is just that.

    In the space of letting go, she let it all be.

    A small smile came over her face.

    A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone

    – Ernest Holmes (or Rev. Safire Rose, no one seems to know which)


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Finger Prints & Facelifts
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The promise of happiness, Justin Cratwright
Silk & Shadows
The Honey Thief
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The Other Boleyn Girl
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3 book flower series by Nora Roberts
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